5 years ago at 6:38pm you came into this world, 22 minutes before 7:00 pm, the time the nurse told me would be the cut off point for being able to get 24 hours discharge from the hospital. I was determined to have have you by 7:00pm so that we could be home on Christmas morning. All of us, you, me, your daddy and your big brother. And you complied. You came into this earth just when I needed you to that day.. But what I didn’t know at the time, was that you really came into this world at the time I would need you most in life.
The minute I held you in my arms I cried such tears of joy, something about the way you felt in my arms seemed so magical. You truly were the very best Christmas gift I had ever received, but I had no idea what a true gift you would be in the months and years to come.
Two months after you were born I found out Aunt Brittany was very sick again, this news came only a few months after finding out that Great grandma was also very sick. So each night as I nursed you to sleep we prayed together for them. You sweetly eating and sleeping, not minding my tears streaming all over you. You always have had a way of looking straight into my soul with your beautiful eyes, even back then as a wee little babe in the middle of the night. It’s almost as if you knew the pain I felt and you offered me comfort when I needed it the most. Both Aunt Brittany and great Grandma would light up when I brought you over to see them. I remember Aunt Brittany being so tired and weak one day but she was determined to hold you. You began to fuss a bit but she didn’t hand you back to me, she walked with you over to her kitchen window and whispered something in your ear.. You immediately stopped crying and smiled at her. She snuggled you in tight, and even though I am unsure of what she said to you, I am quite certain she used every last ounce of energy to do so, you gave her life in that moment too. You continued to breath life into me throughout the next year as I lost my best friend and grandma. For years I felt so guilty for being so sad your first year of life, but now, 5 years later I am able to see that God gave me you during that time for a reason. You made me smile in times of such deep sadness and gave me hope in time of despair. You and your brother kept me going, even on the hardest days. A gift, I will forever cherish.
You still to this day have that effect on people. No matter what is happening in life, I can always count on your sweet gentle spirit to make sure everyone is okay. You and your adorable little voice melts my heart every time. You are wise beyond your years and more gracious than any other 5 year old I know. The joy and life you bring to my soul is immeasurable and I feel beyond blessed to call you my sweet boy. I wouldn’t trade your art creating, mess making, snow loving, Christmas spirit for absolutely anything in the world.
Christmas has always been my most favorite time of year, but the day you were born, Christmas time became more special than I could have ever imagined. God truly blessed me with the very best Christmas present, and that my sweet boy, is you. I pray as the years go by you always remain true to yourself and stick up for what’s right. My hope is that you always continue to be your gentle smiling self, and that one day you will understand just how far your arms can reach, and that you touch souls all around you. You were made for greatness my love, and you are capable of changing the world, one hug at a time. I love you with all my heart.
Love, your Mommy ❤️
Love this. Crying like a baby.
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Your children are adorable. Happy belated Birthday to your little boy. Your post is beautiful.
Thank you so much Kim!