I have wanted a daughter for as long as I can remember. When I was younger I would dream about all of the things I would do with her one day. I still remember sitting in the waiting room to go into my ultrasound for my second baby (my first was a boy) and this overwhelming feeling coming over me that this one was not a girl either. As the ultrasound tech slid the probe over my belly I saw almost immediately that this baby was most definitely a boy. I felt such a mix of emotions. I knew I would love this baby boy as much as I loved my first son, but if I were completely honest, I felt a sense of loss. In my heart I had allowed myself to fall in love with a baby girl, that wasn’t actually there. Of course these feelings quickly faded and before I knew it I was a mommy of two amazing boys that I wouldn’t trade for the world. I was a boys mom through and through. My dreams now shifted to all the things I would do with my little guys, and I felt complete. I love my boys with my entire being and feel beyond blessed to have these two little men that I could call my sons.
Two and half years later I found out I was pregnant again, and as much as I wanted to have a daughter, this time around I was secretly excited for a third boy. I kept thinking about how these brothers would grow up together and have each others backs for life. But the night before I went to my ultrasound, as I prayed, hands on my belly, I knew in my heart that the next day I would see my daughter. When my older son announced it was a girl (we took him with us, and let him tell us) I was over joyed, but again felt the loss of that baby boy I had fallen in love with. A few months later as I held my daughter in my arms for the very first time, I felt a rush of emotion. I was a mom of boys, and I felt confident in that role. But here was this tiny little princess in my arms and she scared me. I wasn’t sure I would be as good of a mom to a girl, as I was with my boys. With my boys, I knew they would grow up and most likely be like their dad, and although I would help them grow into loving, gentle men, they would ultimately look to their dad as the kind of husband and father they would want to some day be. But my daughter, she would look to me. She would watch the way I mothered her and her brothers, and she would learn how to be a wife from watching me with her daddy, and that all of a sudden felt a little bit terrifying. I didn’t want my daughter to be like me. I didn’t want her to grow up so unsure of herself, and allow people to take advantage of her. I didn’t want her to grow up too fast because someone gave her no choice. I didn’t want her to look at herself and not like what she sees. I wanted more for this sweet baby girl, and I wasn’t sure I could be that for her. 
Now nearly two years have passed since that moment, and there are days I am still flooded with these thoughts and feeling of not being good enough. But over the last two years she has taught me that together we will teach each other how to navigate this world of uncertainty. Every single time she drapes her tiny arms around my neck and snuggles her face close to mine, she tells me I am good enough. Every time she reaches for me, and says “Mama” she is telling me she needs me, just me, in that moment. When she looks back at me for reassurance as she tries to climb the play-set she tells me she trusts me to catch her if she falls. And each night as her body relaxes on to mine while rocking her before bed, she shows me I am exactly where I should be. I may not always know every step to take as her mommy, and I will undoubtedly fall a few times along the way, but I know together, I will be the best example of a mommy and wife I can possibly be for her, and she will help me along the way. X♥O Nicole
Very Sweet Post. Your daughter will surely want to be like you. Not the “you” she didn’t know – the “you” that is raising her right now! Thanks for sharing.
Very good point Allison, thank you!
So sweet. I often wonder if I am being the best mom or doing everything to the best of my ability. I spend a lot of time worrying but I too get encouraged by little things my son says or does. Such a sweet post!
Thank you Kristen! Its so hard not to worry parts of your life away, and I think becoming a mommy only highlights some of our worries.. but I bet your son would be saying you’re doing a pretty amazing job! Xo
So sweet. I often wonder if I am being the best mom or doing everything to the best of my ability. I spend a lot of time worrying but I too get encouraged by little things my son says or does. Such a sweet post!
Thank you Kristen! Its so hard not to worry parts of your life away, and I think becoming a mommy only highlights some of our worries.. but I bet your son would be saying you’re doing a pretty amazing job! Xo
What a beautiful post!
Thank you!!
What a beautiful post!
Thank you!!
Beautiful post. Just remember you are the mom that you need to be, and she will see that!
Thank you so much, and you are right… sometimes its so hard to remember that!
Beautiful post. Just remember you are the mom that you need to be, and she will see that!
Thank you so much, and you are right… sometimes its so hard to remember that!
Beautiful post. Just remember you are the mom that you need to be, and she will see that!
Thank you so much, and you are right… sometimes its so hard to remember that!
Such a sweet post. I am sure your daughter would be proud to be like you one day.
Great post! I have a daughter and a son and have had all of these same thoughts!
All of our children are blessings. I think a mother and daughter will have a very strong bond always!
All of our children are blessings. I think a mother and daughter will have a very strong bond always!
All of our children are blessings. I think a mother and daughter will have a very strong bond always!
Very honest post. I’ve definitely been there!
Very honest post. I’ve definitely been there!
What a beautiful post. This is so true. I never thought of it this way… my son would be like my husband. As much as he would watch and learn from me as well, daddy is there to show my son the “daddy things”. But my daughter, ah the pressure I feel of showing her how to be a woman of God. Good thing I have such a powerful God to lead me and guide me because I know that I would certainly not be enough. Thanks for this1
What a beautiful post. This is so true. I never thought of it this way… my son would be like my husband. As much as he would watch and learn from me as well, daddy is there to show my son the “daddy things”. But my daughter, ah the pressure I feel of showing her how to be a woman of God. Good thing I have such a powerful God to lead me and guide me because I know that I would certainly not be enough. Thanks for this1
What a beautiful post. This is so true. I never thought of it this way… my son would be like my husband. As much as he would watch and learn from me as well, daddy is there to show my son the “daddy things”. But my daughter, ah the pressure I feel of showing her how to be a woman of God. Good thing I have such a powerful God to lead me and guide me because I know that I would certainly not be enough. Thanks for this1
I think most moms of girls can relate to your same feelings. I have two little girls and I certainly do. Thanks for the lovely glimpse at your relationship to your kids. I bet they’re lucky to have a mom like you!
I think most moms of girls can relate to your same feelings. I have two little girls and I certainly do. Thanks for the lovely glimpse at your relationship to your kids. I bet they’re lucky to have a mom like you!
I think most moms of girls can relate to your same feelings. I have two little girls and I certainly do. Thanks for the lovely glimpse at your relationship to your kids. I bet they’re lucky to have a mom like you!
Very sweet…. you will be the best and your daughter knows that.
Very sweet…. you will be the best and your daughter knows that.
Very sweet…. you will be the best and your daughter knows that.
Your baby girl is beautiful!
Thank you!!! 🙂
Your baby girl is beautiful!
Your baby girl is beautiful!
Thank you!!! 🙂
I think it’s good for our kids to realize we’re not perfect and we know it. It gives them a realistic representation of life, and helps them know that when they have setbacks as they grow older, it doesn’t make them failures.
Absolutly Amy, that’s always our motto here, no one is perfect except God.. and we all know that.. It wasnt even a matter of being perfect for my daughter, I am soooo far from perfect its not even funny, its a matter of being a mom that has grace, and love and being the best example I can possibly be for both my daughter and my sons. 🙂
I think it’s good for our kids to realize we’re not perfect and we know it. It gives them a realistic representation of life, and helps them know that when they have setbacks as they grow older, it doesn’t make them failures.
Absolutly Amy, that’s always our motto here, no one is perfect except God.. and we all know that.. It wasnt even a matter of being perfect for my daughter, I am soooo far from perfect its not even funny, its a matter of being a mom that has grace, and love and being the best example I can possibly be for both my daughter and my sons. 🙂
I think it’s good for our kids to realize we’re not perfect and we know it. It gives them a realistic representation of life, and helps them know that when they have setbacks as they grow older, it doesn’t make them failures.
Absolutly Amy, that’s always our motto here, no one is perfect except God.. and we all know that.. It wasnt even a matter of being perfect for my daughter, I am soooo far from perfect its not even funny, its a matter of being a mom that has grace, and love and being the best example I can possibly be for both my daughter and my sons. 🙂
This is so beautiful! I agree with the others, I think your daughter would love to be like you …
Aww thank you Sara, I really appreciate that!
This is so beautiful! I agree with the others, I think your daughter would love to be like you …
Aww thank you Sara, I really appreciate that!
This is so beautiful! I agree with the others, I think your daughter would love to be like you …
Aww thank you Sara, I really appreciate that!
We do our best as Mommas to raise our kids. It sounds like you will do your best to help her grow up in a safe, secure, and loving world. Keep up the good work.